February 2012
2 posts
It’s crazy how only little minor thing can bring back so many memories. Smells, feelings and thoughts that you had at that time.
I’m sitting on the bus on the way to work and the script comes on. When I went to see them I couldn’t have been happier, I had a boyfriend who loved me and I was there with my cousin and best friend. I remember what perfume I was wearing! I remember...
Sunday 19 February
So today I decided that I’d quite like to go back to blogging. I can’t keep diaries because I hate writing but I don’t mind typing and seeing as my phone is never out my hand I thought I would just do it from here.
I can’t use the app because there is something crazy going on in my phone but that’s to be expected it is me after all.
This morning I woke up at my...
December 2011
2 posts
So you only came into my life over the last few weeks and you and your family have had such an impact on me. I feel like i have known you forever and i miss when i dont hear from you in a few days.
I know your life is extremely difficult just now but you really dont have to deal with it on your own. You have been let down a lot in the past but im really not like everyone else, and yes everyone...
There are many things in life that we dont have any control over, such as the weather. We may wish and pray for snow or sunshine but really it doesn’t matter what we do, that decision is already made for us and we just have to accept it and take the day as it comes. That’s not the only thing that we have no control over.
We have no control over when our loved ones need to leave us. We...
August 2011
1 post
Ever since the final goodbye i just cant accept it. I cant accept that you are gone. I cant accept that i will never see your smiling face when i walk out my door or come and joke about you walking about in the same leggings as me. You were only supposed to be a neighbour, but you turned into family. You where there at my birth and now youre not here. Not at all.
Ill never forget you. You with...
May 2011
1 post
Fed up with pretending to be Okay. I want to be fine again.
April 2011
5 posts
So today im trying to perk myself up. By myself. Without anyone. Just me. I used to be able to sit in the house myself and not feel the slightest bit lonely, but lately ive not been able to do that. So today, im beginnin to try take charge of my life again.
Sitting with happy songs on, or songs with a hidden feel good meaning in them is really helping me. It kinda feels like im writing a...
the hardest thing i have learned in life is crying and hurting over someone who doesnt seem to care.
thinking that talking to you would have made everything better is wrong because we are still not what we where but its made it easier at least there is contact at least i can tell you things and not be awkward about coming to get my stuff. Jokes and memories have been made and raised but really all i want now is for it to be over. The waiting, i mean.
All day i have been fine, even managed to...
There are a million things rushing round my head and lots of different people tellin me what to do. None of them are what i want to do.
I want to talk to you but i have been advised against it, leave it this long, dont talk to him this week, dont you call or text him first make him do the running but i know thats not going to happen.
I know that in the end of this all i am going to be the one...
Good Enough
Do you ever question if you are good enough for somebody or something?
I do. Everyday.
I feel that sometimes no matter how hard i try i will never deserve you or a moment of your time nevermind to call you mine. I feel that no matter how hard i try to look pretty i know there will always still be someone who is a hell of a lot more gorgeous or cute or sexy, but all i can do is my best. I try be...
February 2011
1 post
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first impression of me?
i met you in primary school so it will probs have been something silly like omg she is amazing she has the coolest flashy shoes ever :P so to be honest i cant really remember, but im sure it was something nice anyway :)
Ask me anything
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I LOVE YOU BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYy
i LOVE YOU TOO <3
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LOL i like woman
Niiice :)
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btw. i hate you.
well if you would tell me who you where im sure we would know why this was.
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Anonymous, abusive people are worst cunts. That is...
Agreed :)
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Ok opinion of me since ive seen a lot of peeps do...
I dont kno you but i gave you advice about your pericing and you took it so youre defos a good guy in my book :D nicest random i have ever met :) xx
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January 2011
7 posts
Pink - Fucking Perfect →
I heard the other night that this video has sparked major contraversity about whether or not this video should be aired due to the fact that the girl cuts herself in the bath. In all honesty, I find it a bit insulting. The world is ready to accept gays and bisexuals and are willing to admit that there are drug addicts and people with drinking problems but are still willing to push people who are...
always the same
explain to me one thing? I bet you cant do it.
Why whenever a boy comes on the scene you change? You call them every name under the sun and then when they decide to pay you some attention that you have been lookin for you cease the chance and jump to their every need.
Why do you have to become someone else? Someone who we dont know nor do we like. The worst thing about it, you think we make it...
December 2010
2 posts
Stephanie Aitchison
Im sure there are many times that you have stared at someone in a wheelchair, a person the same age as you walking about the street with a teddy bear and acting like a child. There are times that maybe you have even sniggerd and made fun of the person with your friends. You’d be lying if you said differently and I’m hpoing that a little bit deeper you felt bad about doing so.
I know I...
November 2010
2 posts
Sometimes i wish i never had emotions. Never felt anger saddness or pain. Sometimes i wish i had never felt happiness. If i had never experienced any of these things nothing would ever disappoint or seem like a failing. Everything would be the same. Motionless. Nothing could ever change.
I wish i was able to accept things do what everyone wanted and even when people let me down it wouldnt make me...
There is no need to lie or exaggerate the truth. Youre clearly not happy with your life but you dont have to make up shit. It actual does my box in.
October 2010
5 posts
You.
ANNOY ME SO MUCH !
Just sayin.
But i cant help liking you.
3.
5 things that irritate me about the opposite sex are:
1. they play mind games.
2. they dont seem to hurt the same.
3. they can sometimes smell bad and actually dont care.
4. they can eat all the time and never put on weight!
5. it doesnt take them half as long to get ready yet they somehow manage to look hot.
5 things that irritate me about the same sex are:
1. they bitch.
2. they moan.
...
2.
Drew Barrymore. I dont see the resemblence or similarities but numerous people have said that i look like her so i dont think it really counts. She’s mega beautiful and well im just the ginge :)
1.
Right now i dont like anyone. Not like that anyway. Im no interested in a relationship atm.
The last person i liked was a bit of a disaster ha! I guess we where too alike at some points. Although, if he was to ever ask me out or to do something now i would probably say yes.
I liked him cause he cared. He was funny. He was hot hot hot! He thought of other people before himself. He was sensitive...
September 2010
13 posts
Five Hundred Twenty Five Thousand Six Hundred...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBoLHqLM7S4
Listen to this song and tell me it doesnt give you shivers down the back of your spine. Just listen. I bet you can’t.
Listening to the different harmonies and the simplicity of the actual song is what makes it brilliant. The different ranges of voices and how powerful each individual is in the song is unexplainable.
It’s one of the reasons...
smile its monday :D
I miss my friends.
I miss my friends. I miss the laughs that we shared.
Its not just one group of friends. It seems to be them all.
People from work. People from school. People who i met through others. They all seem to be disappearing or falling out with me.
and i just miss them. All of them.
I actually feel kinda alone right now. i have a lump in my throat and my eyes are filling with tears, but im not wanting...
Just for you.
You know you have a best friend when things that effect them also effect you.
I never ever met my best friends gran, but the things she told me about her i feel like she was there with us through everything.
Today is the 6th year anniversary of her death, and it doesnt get any easier for her. She loved her gran very dearly. Today is also the day that my best friend is starting university. I...
HAPPY NEW YEAR.
I have friends from different religions and this weekend many are celebrating their new year. I think its kinda sad that not everyone gets involved, so i thought i would post a little something to let them know i was thinking about them! Eid Mubraka!!
Happy New Year.
Quick Moan.
I miss you. I still cant believe you didnt look at me the other day. here’s hoping tomorrow’s not as bad.
Anyway, thats all i have to say on that matter.
Day Ten: One confession.
Sometimes i really couldn’t care what you have to say about situations or when you talk about guys and how they are going to walk away, cause its kinda your own fault. I switch off.
I still care about you. Just not that conversation.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life...
1. :’)
2. :D
What do you do when someone who used to be like your sister cries out for help? Cries out for someone to listen to them?
I guess people could say it would be a difficult situation, but for me it wasnt. I knew exactly what to do. I had to let her know that i was still here.
I guess sometimes you have to realise that life is too short and too cruel to let silly little things come between...
Day Eight: Three turn ons
1. Nice aftershave
2. Grab my thigh
3. Kiss my neck.
Nosey bastards.
There comes a time when everything must come to an end. Some things we wish we could cling onto forever but the sad truth is somethings are just only in our life for a period of time.
Family and friends sometimes dont stick around as long as we want to, but eventually everything works out. We move on and we realise that maybe it just wasnt meant to be.
Some friendships fizzle out and some keep...
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
1. Bad teeth
2. Bad breath
3. Greasy hair
4. mega long hair.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order...
1. Hannah
2. Cage
3. Jamie
4. Charlene
5. Colin
May i point out that this is just friends and not family.
August 2010
15 posts
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
1. said see you tomorrow instead of goodbye.
2. stopped going to see my great gran.
3. smashed my granny’s car window.
4. walked up the road from cheerleadin with Lauren LOL.
5. trusted you.
6. walked away.
Ive had enough and ive cried mega tonight because my life is not hunky dory. my life is far from perfect and everyone close to me seems to be drifting or in some way being taken away from me and to be honest i cant deal with it on my own any more.
I am the listener the counsellor the mother figure the mug which ever way you put it im the one who helps everyone out when they need something. Not...
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot
1. I wonder why and where things went wrong?
2. I wonder if we will ever be the same?
3. When will i sort myself out.
4. Could i have ever made myself more accessible to you?
5. Was that really the reason you died.
6. I wish i said goodbye.
7. I hope she is smiling just as much as she did every time i saw her
I hate when someone’s hurting and you can’t do anything to stop their pain.
I hate when someone needs to cry but they are too proud to do it.
I hate when someone crys over something that could have been avoided.
I hate how everything needs to change.
I hate how sometimes you dont know what mood youre in.
I hate when you say something and you wish you could take it back.
I hate...
Since when did everything become so bitchy snidey and secretive?
In school everyone used to wonder how we got along so well cause all our group done was tell each other the things that where wrong and we sorted them, we fixed the issues. Now we dont talk. We dont even look in each others direction.
I would like to know since when?
We might not see each other as often and we might not have the...
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
1. Make me laugh uncontrollably.
2. Tickle my arm
3. Send me stupid little texts just to see how i am, but not excessively.
4. Sit next to me, or squeeze in beside me, even if there is a free chair the other side of the room.
5. Kiss the top of my head.
6. Move my hair out of my face just to look at me.
7. When i cry hug me even if i try push u away, cause i will snuggle in.
8. Join me for...
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
1. Im called Caitlin McLean,only because nobody had heard of the name Caitlin and my dad liked it.
2. I was known as Siobhan Alice for 2 weeks of my life before my dad changed my name without telling my mum.
3. I was a 3 day labour and my mum doesnt let me forget it.
4. I have ginger hair but nowadays people tell me its not. Well seeing they change their mind when they have had enough of...
There was a time that i would come on and tumble about how amazing my framily was, but i cant do that anymore because i would be lying.
Were not the same people any more and we have all went our separate ways. Some of us have changed and some of us are still the same people we have always been, but it doesnt make the realisation that we will never be the same again any easier.
Before we went to...
I get really quite annoyed when people start chosing when it suits them to be someones friend. If you are someones friend you are there through everything. Good times. Bad times. Times when there isnt anything else to do but just be there for them. Its like unwritten terms and conditions, nobody reads them anyway, but we all get the jist of what is acceptable.
At the end of the day, she has...