Do you ever question if you are good enough for somebody or something?

I do.
Everyday.

I feel that sometimes no matter how hard i try i will never deserve you or a moment of your time nevermind to call you mine. I feel that no matter how hard i try to look pretty i know there will always still be someone who is a hell of a lot more gorgeous or cute or sexy, but all i can do is my best.
I try be exciting, funny and easy going but really im a jacked up paranoid freak of nature who takes everything to heart, and its just not someting i can change no easily anyway.
There is no way of me being any better than what i am and that is for the sheer fact of, i have been practicing being me for 18 years and sometimes i still get that bit wrong.

I wish i was perfect or what people would define as beautiful, but im just not. No matter how little i eat or how many times i laugh, i will never be that person.
Things used to be different, im just hoping you havent got bored already.

What im really trying to say is, I care far too much about other peoples opinion of me even although i act like i dont care.