So today im trying to perk myself up. By myself. Without anyone. Just me. I used to be able to sit in the house myself and not feel the slightest bit lonely, but lately ive not been able to do that. So today, im beginnin to try take charge of my life again.
Sitting with happy songs on, or songs with a hidden feel good meaning in them is really helping me. It kinda feels like im writing a soundtrack to my break up but im okay with it if it helps me get through it.
There came a point when i realised that i wasnt alone. That i have everyone around me and you only made me slightly into the person that im becoming or want to be. I will never lose a place for you and you know that.
I heard that you thought you fucked everything up. You didnt, you just hurt me. Wish you felt comfortable enough to come to me about it. Not to get back together, but i explained how i was feeling to you, so i just wish you could feel you could do the same.
But just now, while you concentrate on yourself im doing the same. Concentrating on me. Nobody else, for once in my life im going to be selfish. Im going to laugh like i have never laughed before, dance like nobody is watching, sing like EVERYONE is listening and make sure i have a good time.
Its defos not going to be easy, but nothing in life is.
Life Goes On.
Have no regrets.
