Ever since the final goodbye i just cant accept it. I cant accept that you are gone. I cant accept that i will never see your smiling face when i walk out my door or come and joke about you walking about in the same leggings as me. You were only supposed to be a neighbour, but you turned into family. You where there at my birth and now youre not here. Not at all.
Ill never forget you. You with your red fleece on that matched your rosy cheeks and that big big smile that was always etched on your face. I wish i got to see you one last time before you ended up in that box! It was so small. I couldnt believe it was you inside.
I have nobody to talk to about this. I dont know what to say to anyone. Im tryin to be brave for my mum acting like everythin is normal but deep down im totally petrified. You went into hospital for a check up and you never came home. You never got to say goodbye. I now realise how short life and how quickly peoples lives can dramatically change.
I just wish it was different. A whole lot different.
I wish i sang to you one last time.
I wish i did a lot of things.
But right now i need to just appreciate everyone around me, this is the only positive i can take out of this. I never got to tell you but i love you.
Thanks for being you and nobody else.
i will never forget you or your husband or the goldfish!
RestInPeace
